its not and will not be how i intend to live my life. again im stuck in a sticky situation,, where i cant let go nor get too attached.

right now, am in self loathing status.

Impressive

Its amazing how ppl have gone to xtreme lengths to make their blogs look terrific. i tried goofing around and im not yet happy w/ the result; however i prefer this layout to the preivous Black.

Black was a description of state a couple of years ago in my life.
how did i feel: black
wat am i wearing: black
wat do i c: black
name: ummm , black?
wat movies do i like: meet Joe Black (off topic)

Who has time to read wat other ppl are currently feeling, thinking, eating, doing at this very moment? i xpect this is just another form of keeping a journal, xcept that you get to type it neatly and its no longer private (even if you priviligize your entries).

enough of this worthless rant.. grandpa is ill and im having nightmares.
he's supposed to attend my wedding and God knows if ill ever get married that is. prospects are currently nill.

1st thing's 1st

It's all sounding too silly for me..
i already feel like a subordinate.. being one speck of waste in this huge universe.. i wouldnt even label myself as a speck; when mother earth obviously plays a bigger role at being just that.
so am left with the rediculed fact that am just another 'show off w/ no obvious talent for writing' person; whose hopes at the moment are compromised of finding a suitable attire to wear to work tomorrow.
another indulgence, wud be an instant blog success that would turn my already over sized ego to XXXL.

Anyway, hopefully ill remember to return, if i remember that im now officially registered as an up to date member of the cyber world. Perhaps i owe this world a favour by returning; altho my xistence will be limited to my own; as my normal human like friends,, are just that: human non bloggers.

goodnite.